Cry Tonight

2004-08-02 // 10:40 p.m.

Ez rang an hour ago. Asked me to take Anna Judge to the ball. I said no. I'm still taking you, Tash! *smiles* Yeah. Ez had this thing for Anna a while ago but now he's trying to make things with her mate Luchee (Dunno how to spell her name, but that's how you say it. I don't care either way...) and he's taking her. She's taken, though, but her man cheated on her. If, by cheating, she means kissed another girl then I'm going to laugh. It's almost like as we get older, cheating goes from holding anothers hand during morning tea at primary, then to hooking up with another chick/guy during adolsence then graduating to a good ol' fashioned fuck when you think you can get away with it. But. Yeah.

Anna Judge is one of those ladies who doesn't need make-up to look good. I mean, most girls do, but she doesn't actually wear make up (or at least a noticable amount...) and Ez was throwing "She's fucking hot." lines at me and I've seen her. She's almost everything they say she is. But mates before dates. And I doubt that taking her to the ball will be anything remotely related to a "date". We need a new word for that. Intimate outing doesn't do either.. Anyway. It'd probably be just me taking her and she buggers off with Mo and co, leaving me to kiss my vodka bottle.

Ez talked me up when he was round at Mo's with Luchee etc. You know when you talk up your mates to someone: "He's fucking awesome." I'd hate to disappoint. She'd probably think (appearance wise) I'm like Ez. *coughs* I'd really hate to disappoint. But the way she looks, she shouldn't have trouble finding someone else.

And I'd have more fun with Tash. Because I love you and at least we'd talk. So woohoo for that. Ez is having pre-ball drinks and we're getting a Limo there. Not quite a horse carriage ride, but it's better than walking. I dunno what Laura will be doing, maybe drinks with the chickies..? But yeah. I had a dream last night that, without telling me, someone came up with the stupid idea to have the ball Monday night and seeing as it's planned for Oct/Nov, you could imagine how unprepared I would be (forgetting that every other guy would probably be too..). So there I am scrambling to find a 1920's brown pinstripe suit complete with sexy hat thing and finding nothing. Then I broke down and cried thinking that I had let Tash down and was going to miss the formal.

I don't know why I'm stressing about this. I'm a guy. We don't do this. We don't get ready until, at most, a month before hand. I'm glad that I've sort of got a partner sorted (Yeah.. There's these forms that might fuck things up... I'll talk to Laura, Tash.. She'll think of something.). That way I don't have to worry about mumbling questions at girls while wondering whether they've already got something sorted. I'd still like to take Sarah, but apparently we can't take fifth formers, and we've only just started talking again and I'd like to keep it there before we forget eachother completely.

Alisa turns 17 on Fri. Or at least her parties then. I have no idea what to get her. I'm going to have to put on my thoughtful-present cap and get looking. Me and Ez will probably get her something. I was thinking the new John Mayer CD and flowers and 'candy', as she calls it. It's cute. It's one of those things you notice and keep to yourself while waiting for them to do it again. I have hundreds of those for everyone. Sometimes I spend my day just watching for those things. Maybe that's why I'm introverted (I know! It's true apparently!?!). Just the thought of those things makes me smile and gives me that funny feeling in my tummy. Like Miss Winters smile, her blues eyes sparkling etc, or Nicole's eyes while she watches me in disbelief. Or Crosbies snorts. Or Andrews "OOOooOoo" that he does like Homer Simpson, fingers twiddling and all. When Alisa points to her cheek and says "Kissy kissy." or when Rangihika does his little maori salute and Turei does his giggle behind his hand. When Lisa Chins face goes from a concentrating frown to a brillianr smile when I catch her off guard with a 'Hi'. Or Kendra's facials, usually when Lydia says something stupid. When Lisa covers my eyes with her hands from behind and kisses my cheek. And when Ez stares at the ceiling when he tells me about a girl he's just realised he's gotten over or is having something for. The way that Staci's smell used to be a mixture of Strawberries and cigarettes. And the thoughtful expressions on Ambers face, someone who I don't know very well but I used to read a short story by her that was pinned on my english room wall about animals on a picnic when a flood comes through and a snail and something else decide to stay (I think it was a hippopotomus) out and the other animals warned them over and over, but in the end they got swept away and the other animals never saw them again. I must remember to thank her for that.

Something says I'm going to sleep soundly and happily tonight.

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